SORRY IF I OFFEND YOU

so its been a while and i have so much top say but im not sure how much i feel like typing right now...

last i wrote i was pregnant right... okay so yeha i had a baby his name is aydenn and he is 3 months and the best baby ever!!


so i want to get a new job... i want it soooo bad i really hope she calls....
sorry if i dont make sence i kinda just use live journal to get my thouhgts out and ont think about other people reading it its just none stop typing!!..


okay whats a good baby i love when he jumps around and get happy when he sees me its the best feeling in the world cuz i know he loves me with all his heart and know im his mommy and i love him sooo much no matter what darnell says he loves me more... hahaha i love him so much thye l;ove i feel is crazy kinda make me feel bad for telling my mom i hate her....,

sorry mom i never ment it nor did i know how much love u feel for me no matter what untill now i love u so much and am so glad u are finally happy with tim!

ok typos i know dont care just keep typing never stop to back space!!

Omg im watching cnn or somthing like that and in florida these girls jumped this one girl and its on video its so bad i feel so bad for this poor girl..... She cant see or hear right now.... And these girls had the nerv to plead not guilty.... Wtf ur on video ur idiots!!.... This makes me so mad i swear if that was mt daughter i would be going to jail cuz.i would beat the sh*t out all those braty lil spoil bitches....lol!

So i havent written in a while.... I have just been so exshuasted(cant spell) being pregnant is... Fun?.. Lol i guess... I dont really feel pregnant im 4 months... Iv only gained 3 pounds so far witch is good.... I find out the se on 5/22..... Girl or boy either way.... I leaning twords girl but if its a boy i will ofcource love him... I had a dream that it was a boy and they say that means to opposit!.. So if its a girl its gunna be Shyla Darnell Turnbull... Boy will be Darnell Keishunn Turnbull J.R......

im so excited i just want my baby already!!...lolol!.... Cant wait!

october 10th<3 due date!

its been a while i had no phone... Broke 2 in two weeks... Sucks...


so i been feelin ok... I just dont feel pregnant yet!!....

i cant wait to feel the baby!... Prob in another cupple weeks!!....

update u in a few!!

im so moody!!!!...... Its like i got every harmone and emotion going throught me right now!!... Not to metion getting all the energy sucked out of me....lolol.... Its all worth it though!

So i did it and i am.... A lil scared... But happy!

Time is going so slooooooooow

ok so krystal are u stupid.....

cant belive im telling strangers this but ok here we goo.....

darnell's birthday was yesterday so last night we was haveing sex.... And he is 29 he is getting old he wants kids.... So we was doin our thing and he was like babe let me (you knoooow).... So i just let him do it and thats the 2nd time is 2 weeks so yeah..... I will update in a month but i think its safe to say that unless im the luckiest girl every..... There will be a baby on the way!

So yeah i just got a new computer... Love it!...

everything is so good with me and darnell!!!!

my temper so starting to scare me ..... I really think i should get anger management.... Iv always thought i was crazy but not its starting to be a bit much.... I really dont know!....

so i wanna go see a phyciatrist but i feel like its only for crazy people but i just want someone who doesnt know me and could tell me to calm the fuck down..lol... Ahhhh i think ewritting everything helps but also i think i need some feed back like to tell me im wrong!.... I kepp another journal and i always write when im mad... Long pages and pages off angry mess!...lollol ???????????

so its been so long since i wrote anything in this journal.... I dont even know where to start... So im done with kb toys dont like it dont wanna .talk about it its like one of those thing u dont even wanna think about to yourself..... Me and darnell are great i love him so much... I feel at this point in my life i am happier then i have ever been befor!.... Cheezzy yeah yeah.... Peace!

SOORRRY GUYS WITH TWO JOBS IM SO SO SO BUSY I CANT EVEN FIND TIME TO BREATH.......
WELL I QUIT KB I HATE IT ITS NOT THE SAME THEY TREAT ME LIKE IM A SLAVE!.... IT SUCKS.....

I STOLE THIS FROM DADA SORRY I LOVE SURVEYS

I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 5 items. You can only pick one thing from the following departments.. what is it?

1. Produce: CHERRIE TOMATOS
2. Bakery: CHEESE CAKE
3. Meat: CHICKEN
4. Frozen: MINET MADE ICY
5. Dry goods: DORITOS...HOT WINGS AND BLUE CHEESE

Let's say you're heading out for a weekend getaway. You're only allowed to bring 3 outfits with you. So, what's in your bag?

1. BLACK T-SHIRT JEANS MY BLACK HOODY WITH ZIPPER AND ANCLE SOCKS AND BLACK PUMAS

2.PURPLE NEW SHIRT BLACK HALF SWEATER BLACK PAINTS AND BLACK FLATS

3. BLACK SWEAT PANTS OLD NAVY HODDY AND BLACK SLIPPERS


So, what 3 things do you find yourself doing every single day, and if you didn't get to do, you'd probably be in a pretty irritable/bad mood?

1. CUDDLE WITH PATCHES
2. PEE...I DO THAT ALOT!
3. TALK TO DARNELL


What are 3 things that you have in your room that have been with you for the longest amount of time?

1.DARNELL...HE LIVED HERE FIRST
2.BED
3.PIC OF ME AND AUNT SUE WHEN IM A BABY


If you were only allowed to listen to 5 of your CDs for the rest of your life, never adding anything else, which 5 could you listen to & be content with?


1.GARTH BROOKS GREATEST HITS
2.ALICIA KEYS ANY
3.CELEAN DEON GREATEST HITS
4.RENT SOUNDTRACK FULL
5.BEYONSE B-DAY


Sweet, you just scored a whole afternoon to yourself. We're talking a 3 hour block with nobody around. What 5 activities might we find you doing?

1.PLAYING IN THE BACK YEARD WITH MY DOGS
2.READING
3.LISTENING TO MUSIC PLAYING MYSELF IN GIN
4.DANCEING
5.DOIN MY HAIR


We're going to the zoo. But, it looks like it could start storming, so it'll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?

1.GORILLAS
2.GIRAF
3.ELEPHANTS


You're hungry for ice cream. I'll give you a triple dipper ice cream cone. What 3 flavors can I pile on for ya?

1. Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough.
2. VANILLA
3. BIRTHDAY CAKE



Somebody stole your purse/wallet…in order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it. So, what's in there?

1. My driver's license.
2. PIC OF AMANDA
3. BARNES AND NOBLE CLUB CARD
4. HAND SANITIZER
5. POCKET CALENDER



You are at a job fair, and asked what areas you are interested in pursuing a career in. Let's pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 3 careers would be fun for you?

1. SINGER...IF I COULD SING
2. HOST ON THE VEIW
3. HIGH END SALOON OWNER



If you could go back and talk to the old you, when you were in high school and inform yourself of 7 things that were going to happen, what would it be?

1.TELL AUNT SUE HOW MUCH U LOVE HER AND GIVER HER ONE LAST KISS GOOD BYE!
2.PLEASE DONT HIT THAT POLE WHEN U WERE IN THAT PARKING GARAGE
3.DONT SPEED!
4.DO YOUR WORK AND STOP BEING SUCH A BITCH
5.PLEASE DONT MISS SO MUCH SCHOOL WHEN UR IN CAPRI $3,000 IN ABSENT HOURS ARE INSANE
6. YOUR MOM IS UR BEST FRIEND
7. DARNELL IS THE BEST THING THATS EVER HAPPENED TO U FORGIVE HIM CUZ WHEN U DO IT ONLY GET BETTER!

now i know its been a while but im so busy with mi life!!....

so this is gunna be short... sorry i will get to u guys lata~!

ok so i had my first day @ kb.... it was cool im the only girl!..lol

so today is the big day!!! dun dun du dun!!!
details to come!

so i acctually got a day off..... I been workin my ass off laitly....

KB Toys from 9-2 Supercuts 3-9..... They got me my bank account still getting smaller i cant stop shopping....

so haloween is coming and my dog is gunna be a bumblebee...lol he is a bow and the costume is like a tutu... But my big dog she is gunna be superman lol the costume is so cute ima post pictures on mi myspace...lol so i will let u guys know and give u a link......

out...

i have been working like crazy.... I cant belive i love it!...lol

so i just got a job @ kbtoy for part time seasonal... I worked at kb for 4 years befor i became a hairstylist... Im so excited cuz i love kb!... I was like miss super kb employee...lol

k well love you guys!

im feelin that new common and lilly alen song!



 

IM FEELING CRRRRRRAAAAAZZZZZZYYYYYYY RINGHT NOW!!!!! 

ok so i gave in and put 2 people i know on my friends list.... 

you see there is so much i feel so much i think deep inside me and to all my friend i feel like i have to be this tough girl thats always who i have been but as im getting older im becoming more and more different like im suck a girly girl alot of my fiends dont know that about me... 

i think i lost in who i wanna be and who i realy am i gotta find me. this is the only time i am 100% true to myself is when i write i say thinkgs with out hinking thats why there r no periods or anything its like one big sentance...

when i talk to people there is so much i hold back on im am suck a different person then i used to be and i dont hink anyone but darnell and beth even know who i am....

all these so called friends dont even know me and im not saying it about them its me i dont even know me 

sometimes i cry idk why i just feel like there is somthing inside me that i dont even know something i have to find i need to find i wanna know myself...

i feel like i just live for darnell i need to live for me....(ahhhh that was a big thunder i hope the power dont go out) i feel like i have lost myself in this relationship with darnell i just dont know who i am anymore and its a lil scarry

DONT GET ME WRONG I AM A HAPPY PERSON I LOVE MY LIFE MY JOB MY FRINDS THERE IS JUST THINGS I GOTTA FIX BEFOR I DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY!!!

GIVE ME UR OPINION ON THIS GUYS I WANNA KNOW WHAT U THINK EVEN A&D 

A I ADDED U CUZ U ARE MY OLDEST FRIEND I WAS SO MEAN TO U SO MANY TIMES AND U R STILL HERE WHY IM NOT THAT SECIAL OF A PERSON I DONT GET IT!

D THERE IS JUST SOMTHING THAT MAKES ME TRUST U WERE NOT EVEN THAT CLOSE BUT I STILL CONCIDER U MY FAM(& ALL THE TDM GIRLS) BUT U WERE JUST ONE I ALWAYS KNEW EVEN AT TIMES WHEN I HATED U I COULD JUST TRUST U